It was not my thoughts but voices I hear. It began several months ago. According to my knowledge, it is the continuation of disturbance against me that began on 2011.
This time I was confused a lot, hard to know which ones came from God, and which ones is the Devil's. Even birds were used, I have followed them one whole day when it started to begin months ago, around April, this year 2014, while I was back in Mizoram, North East of India.
Many things happened but let me write why I jumped to the ground from fourth plus floor on 19th July.
I was disturbed the previous whole night and from the morning I went out and followed some birds in New Delhi. I heard their tweets as if they talked in my father's tongue/dialect - Mizo/Lusei language as was. I even climb over someone's fence several times as I understood the birds....
When I hear the birds as if they were saying, 'ask for ropes,' I went back home again. Because, though I thought the birds were God's Spirit/Good Angels, I don't want to climb to enter and meet the men in there after several times.
I also thought they wanted me to hang myself, and my belief that they were Holy Angels seems confused.
When at home, I heard a loud and sad cry coming in from or near the porch, calling out, 'Mommm.' My mom and brother and sister at home also heard it.
'Oh, the Devil thought I am going to die,' I thought. Maybe, he was trying to used the voice as my spirit to deceive my near ones. (There is no living spirit of humans after dead.)
But then, I heard (I don't remember, in my ear or ear of heart/mind), 'If you want to save those who commit suicide, jump down from the roof.'
I thought it was the Spirit of God, and I went up on the roof above the stairs which is higher than the fourth floor of the building.
I took off my clothes, standing naked, then I prayed to God and then jump down to the ground.
The next thing I remember was, waking up in the ICU of Trauma Center. Broke my left leg, and right foot but the doctors in Trauma Center fixed and operated it and under go stomach surgery.
Please don't try this at home or anywhere, suicide is a shortcut to dead and then Hell.
If I heard different words, like jump for all, from the voice it's not likely that I would jump down. Because, Jesus Christ has Suffered and Died for us all.
Since, the voice told me to jump for 'those who commit suicide,' I was confused.
After the jump but spared by God through helpful souls, Jesus Christ has suffered and died even for those who commit suicide. 'Why did I jump,' I thought but late.
So, I believe it is The Devil Satan, A Coward and Liar and Deceiver Who wants all of us suffer and die in Hell with him, who try to deceive me to dead.
Let's learn from this fact and let's not allow Satan to deceive us to dead, to commit any kind of suicide, which may appear religious or not.
Please, pray for me and share me your thoughts on this post, my relatives, my family in Adam, Noah and but The Lord who made Adam and us through him.
Words of Thanks
I don't know well but let me share my thanks:
Thank you Doctors,
Thank you to all souls, my brothers and sisters including brother Mikie, who took me to the Hospital, gives me blood, pray for me, care for me, look after me.
Thank you Mom.
The Lord has saved me from death through you all.
Thank You Lord for saving me.
I've been a fool and now I wanted to correct my mistakes which I have posted here and other social networking sites.
Please forgive me and pray for me to get well soon and make my mistakes in posts and anywhere else right, my loves.
I have repented from mis-Interpreting The Scriptures, The Lords Words.
I've misinterpreted (Revelation 6) that World War 3 will begin after 3 and half years.
And that, the man in red horse with sword is NATO,
And many more.
I apologize to God and you, including NATO, my friends and fellows, my brothers and sisters.
Please forgive me and pray for me.
Lord forgive me, help and reform me. And also all those who need such, my Lord in Heaven. In Jesus Name I pray to you only for Your Glory.